To make a long story short… I’ve been in love with a girl for a while now. Lets say, two years. It was something I hid for a long time, something I wouldn’t even let myself know. If that makes any sense. I kept telling myself that it was nothing, that I was going to get over it in a few weeks and find someone else to have a crush on, but that wasn’t how it was going to work. Nope, I feel head over heals for this girl, and like the idiot I am, I told her.

That set me back down on her list of people to like. We had been very close friends before I told her this, and she freaked on me. We didn’t speak for two months. It was a long, hard process to get her to talk to me again, and when she did talk to me it was hard to be normal friends. After a few months of an awkward relationship, she said we couldn’t be friends anymore until I stopped being in love with her.

The threat of losing her made me stop having feelings for her, just as quickly as they had come. I was doing great, I wouldn’t freak out when I was around her, or get turned on when she licked a fork.. -blush- It was going great, and I wasn’t in love with her anymore, until I saw a picture of her on Facebook. My heart about exploded and I fell in love again.

I’m in love with her again! This sucks so bad! All I want is to have a normal friendship with her, and my stupid, dumb ass feelings keep getting in the way! What should I do?! I can’t tell her that I’ve fallen again because if I do tell her that, she’ll leave me forever.. I wish someone knew what was going on with me and tell me how to stop being in love with her